Lost in time....

Time passed in a blink of an eye and I hardly notice it.... PG ended 3months ago and I felt it was last month till XX came down to singapore for the SA told me it has been 3months since she left. Yesterday, my friends told me its the last weekend before christmas and asked me wanted to do midnight shopping? Only then that I realise christmas is next week and soon 2006 is coming to an end.... I remember during the same period last year, I was just an intern doing the BYT...now I'm the LP for the second season of BYT.... this whole year what have I done? I seriously can't remember... but for what I know... it did pass away very fast without me feeling abit of drag... I have been running and running non-stop for this whole year... been throught alot, lost alot of things along the way, including myself.... but till now I hardly have the time to stop to find it back... why only when I'm in here I will felt the tiredness that has been building inside me... feel so much as to cry out loud... is there any one out there that who can save me.... is there any where I can rest my tired feet down...
I have met the surgeon... and will only know what she will be doing to me next week... felt scared... but no one seems to have time to accompany me... asked mum but she told me she will be busy as it going to be the last week before closing... she told me to ask my uncle to go with me... but I do not want to bother him about this... I will learn to be strong, I will face this journey myself.....
Chirstmas is coming and I hated it... althought I have been humming christmas song... but deep down I hate it... I think I will just grab a few dvds and cook myself a nice dinner, switch off my mobile and be with myself... I just want to be alone this christmas.... do not want to know that its christmas and why I hated it... never in my 10 years I had enjoyed my christmas... this year is no exception also...